Your most unreal moment

My entire life thus far has been completely surreal. Sometimes I just feel as if I'm trapped underwater, and I can hear the voices around me. Sometimes I have to reach out and touch someone, something, to try to convince myself it's real.

When my mother told me Jason had died, which has been a month now, I felt as if I'd fallen and hit my head once again. I could smell hot pavement around me and the scent of fresh blood and freshly cut grass. And I could hear a woman screaming again. But I could smell the taste of tears, and I felt screams. My face felt sunburned again and my fingers ached. They felt broken and bruised. The palms of my hands were cut and I kept hearing these screams.
When I was nine I blacked out while riding my bike down the street and fell out into the road in front of a large truck. The driver swerved to miss me, but kept going and I laid in the road there for almost two hours. I had a fracture in the back of my skull, and I'd broken both my hands and four fingers when I fell off the bike. When I woke up one of my hands were still clenched around the handlebars.
Alot of times...I open my eyes and I'm back on the road, looking up at the sky. Grimacing when I try to move from the pain.
I go back to that day alot. When I think of Jason and the way my mother's face looked, the tears that were cascading down her small face...I wake up to smelling the pavement again and the freshly cut grass.