Salvation

It's the misery that makes people jump. It's the apathy that causes
countless people to cut. It's the things you think of like your father's
obsession with his cheap car that he'll someday 'pass down to his
daughter' that makes you cringe when you're making the noose. It's the
little things in between that cause you to slowly break down and become
so horribly miserable, so terribly hopeless, so utterly despondent that
you want nothing more than to end the charade and get it over with. Thats
why you take the entire bottle, thats why you pull the trigger. It's the
constant day-to-day whirl of waking up and knowing you haven't anything
to aspire to be. It's rolling over in bed and thinking to yourself that
there are no hopes you wish to have, no dreams you wish to follow that
finally makes it all seem sensible that ending it completely can be the
only, and final, answer.