Salvation

      "So you think you can tell? Heaven from hell ."
       This feeling...this feeling is so cold. Its raining in on me from all sides. The feeling of worthlessness. The feeling of all my hopes being abandoned once again. the feeling of my trusts being betrayed.
      And you think you re making things interesting?
      I laugh and smile like it s a game.
      And it s raining in on me from the outside- barging in upon me from the outside, and taking me for all I'm worth.
      I can close my eyes now and feel the screams. I can open them up and see your voice.
      Why have you become this way? So rigid, so cold. I look around and no one else sees it. no one else hears it- but I do.
      I do.
      Do you think you could tell? One of my plastered on smiles from a genuine one? Do you think you could tell the difference between my tears and my laughter?
      I look around the cold metal table, and once again I'm all alone. And the feeling descends down upon me once more.  And I look up at you but all I can feel are your screams...


I love you Mags.


(Edited by Fallen at 10:25 pm on Jan. 15, 2002)