Salvation

Quote: from Fallen on 12:55 am on July 12, 2001
there is a point in time where you're suddenly past the point of tears, past being angry, beyond the pain. where you question your laughter, your smiles, and yourself. and it is then all is lost.

Yes, the numbness. After I first had it, it has never really gone away. It lurks, in the edge of my mind. It's a void, that devours all life it comes into touch with. A dark vortex that fills the sky and yearns for more.

I hope it will not eat you wholly, like it did to me. It's easy to let go and drift away into nothingness. It isn't easy to get out. You're like a differet person just piggy-backing on your old self, and then even that vanishes, and you don't remember anything, you just exist because your body doesn't realize to die, even as the spirit has done so. And your spirit still is held in this world, as it's corporeal being is alive here. Still, I wouldn't think whole death would have been a better option. Even if the daemons whisper it, even if the moment of numbness gives nothing against it. I could just be, 'cause I did not exist.

And Mihnea, you'd be surprised of the things that can brew in your mind when in the hot reddish heat of sauna. They're just damn hard to put in words...