The Big Picture | To Let You In On It...

Well, to summerise you up....

I feel like I am losing grip on my life, for three main reasons:

My Family: My Grandmother is dying, and soon. My whole family is upside down. My Mum has gone to Scotland to be with her, so I am left to try and help look after the kids with my Dad. So, aside from all that I am feeling, I am having to be the strong one, as always, and cope, and put on a brave face, because it is dificult enough for my family as it is, without my tears....

Friends: Just started a new colege, none of my close friends are there... new places, new faces, new routine, and its all so much, trying to think about the future....

Daniel: I'm fed up. I don't know where I stand with him anymore, and with the fact that now school is in we are hardly ever going to see each other, it seems more important now than ever that he knows how I feel, but I can't tell him for fear that I will be hurt. I've told you before about my luck with men, and my confidence can't take anymore knocking, no matter how strong I seem. And my friends can tell me over and over how good a person I am, and they mean it, but its not the same as having someone feel for you the way I feel for Daniel....