Jul 18, 2001, 07:02 PM,
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Amor Fati
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Time... | and my oldest dream
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Which would be, time travel. or not time travel itself, but returning in time to a certain point. And again, not to necesarily change anything, but to relieve...This used to be the main thing on my mind for a loooong time, when I was always regretting the past. Since I met THE ONE, I stopped wishing for that. Till now, when college is over and it hurts like hell. I want to go back. No matter how far. Just to see that it's possible. And to relieve some things. Not alter much. I still hope sometimes, even if I am happy, that I'd wake up like three years ago or so. Maybe on January 29, 1998. Or another date. Damn. Maybe writing about it will kick it away from my mind. When I think about it it sounds OK, but know that I write it, it looks ridiculous and absurd..Even pathetic..This helps.
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Sunt lacrimae reum
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Jul 18, 2001, 07:26 PM,
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Time... | and my oldest dream
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I'd like to travel back to the day I was born, and make sure that it would never happen.
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Jul 18, 2001, 07:35 PM,
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Amor Fati
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Do you really mean that? Why?
Technically, that wouldn't help, not in my world. I'd like to return in time to one point knowing what was to follow. I don't want my body to go back in time, just my mind. My mind and the memories I have now, to me back then. So you'd just be a new born who can't think, so...sorry.
Come to think of it, my kind of time travel would be more possible that body time travel. It would be sort of a "Somewhere, sometime", if you remember the movie...
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Jul 18, 2001, 07:55 PM,
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Time... | and my oldest dream
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No, I don't remember the movie, never even heard of it... sorry. And yes, I do really mean that, I hate my life. And I have a feeling that I have made my parents' lives even worse. Everyone would be a lot better off if I were never born. I would kill myself, but I'm too afraid to. I don't like pain. Besides it wouldn't have the same effect as never being born would. I wish my parents had a different child and not me... Anyways, that isn't what this topic is about...
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Jul 19, 2001, 01:54 AM,
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JuggleFoe
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Quote:Quote: from ThatVoiceInsideUrHed on 1:55 pm on July 18, 2001
No, I don't remember the movie, never even heard of it... sorry. And yes, I do really mean that, I hate my life. And I have a feeling that I have made my parents' lives even worse. Everyone would be a lot better off if I were never born. I would kill myself, but I'm too afraid to. I don't like pain. Besides it wouldn't have the same effect as never being born would. I wish my parents had a different child and not me... Anyways, that isn't what this topic is about...
wow. i can't imagine how you could possibly feel like that about yourself.
i can just imagine the limitless amounts of sun-like warmth you bring to people's lives on a daily basis.
but seriously, if you want to have a better life, stop being negative.
seriously. it works. it sounds cheesy, but it does work. you have to be willing to break the cycle of gloom.
until you reach that point, you'll continue to feel the same way.
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