-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 10:34 am on Jan. 16, 2002 As one who holds a butterfly in his hands must let it free, for all to enjoy the beauty, so was I released, but unwillingly so, being that I was the butterfly longing to be held enternally ---------- Reason? I went back to 'the' field at the weekend (taking my best friend for support), to re-assess how I feel. Have decided to phone Daniel, and arrange to meet so we can 'talk' -- Posted by Amor Fati on 10:41 am on Jan. 16, 2002 This is beautiful. What happened? Beautifully said I mean. -- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 10:44 am on Jan. 16, 2002 What do you mean when you say what happened? -- Posted by Amor Fati on 11:31 am on Jan. 16, 2002 To make you write this, now? -- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 12:52 pm on Jan. 17, 2002 Because, well because things appear as if they may finaly be comming to a head, so to speak -- Posted by Amor Fati on 1:05 pm on Jan. 17, 2002 The Daniel situation? -- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 2:43 pm on Jan. 17, 2002 It's times like RIGHT NOW that I wish I was a swearing person. I just found out that Daniel has just sort of broken up with a girlfriend. As well as the obvious blow from the news, this sort of makes now the WORST possible time to talk to him, because the last time I talked to him was just after he had broken up with someone, and it lead to me feeling used by him, as it were. -- Posted by Amor Fati on 2:48 pm on Jan. 17, 2002 ...or is it?... -- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 2:56 pm on Jan. 17, 2002 Yes, yes it is -- Posted by Amor Fati on 3:01 pm on Jan. 17, 2002 ... -- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 10:24 am on Jan. 19, 2002 Well, today I saw Daniel for the first time in over 4 months. And... I walked right passed him. I am under the impression that he did not see me, and by the time I had stopped myself from feeling like I was going to be sick from the acrobatics my stomache was doing, he had passed..... -- Posted by Amor Fati on 2:35 pm on Jan. 19, 2002 And again, do I know the feeling... -- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 3:32 pm on Jan. 19, 2002 I'll let you know what happens... but I'm not horribly hopefull at the moment..... -- Posted by Amor Fati on 3:36 pm on Jan. 19, 2002 And it's better like that. Again, I hope you won't be in my situation...Because with that thing I told you about, the last push was the most traumatizing and hurtfull. The latest and most desperate try was the most damaging. Good luck. And do not get your hopes too high...It will minimize the hurt or maximize the joy...