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-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 2:53 pm on July 14, 2001
You had spent the whole day with me, as usual, as ever. We had played our usual games, where you would pretend to insult me, and I would pretend to be offended. You would tickle me, and I would wrestle you untill I had you pinned, and we were both giggling. Then I would pretend that you had overpowered me, and now managed to pin me. Did you know I was pretending? That I wanted you to pin me? That I like to feel under your power?
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 11:03 am on July 18, 2001
Today, we went to a friend's house to watch videos. I did not expect you to be so open today, not infront of 4 of our friends. But still we lay together, this time as a jigsaw, with my back to your front, and you rested your chin on my head. Did you not mind that my hair was still damp from the falling rain outside, and our previous trip to the chip shop? Did you mean to gently stroke my arm with your forefinger, or was it a sub-concious act? Did you feel, as I did, the eyes of our friends upon us, knowing, or guessing, what was going on in our minds? Did it bother you to be so close to me, and to have then think what they thought?
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 12:53 pm on July 18, 2001 This is not good.
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 12:55 pm on July 18, 2001 What?
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 1:01 pm on July 18, 2001 This situation with you two...It's not right. I mean it's frustrating, and it's even worse if you think, if you know that he's your soulmate...I don't think this situation can go anyplace good if it goes on like this...
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:05 pm on July 18, 2001 I know how I feel about him, and I am just too scared to act. I'm not sure if he feels the same about me. You know my opinions on soulmates, so whatever happens, I know that is true, I just wish I knew how he felt about me for sure
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 1:12 pm on July 18, 2001 I know what you mean...But waiting does no good...If he feels the same, it's great, but if he doesn't, why prolongue the agony...How did things chage in how he acts toawards you now that you socialize more, in comparison to before?
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:16 pm on July 18, 2001 Things have changed a lot the more time we have spent together. We have always been emotionally close, but lately, we have become physically closer.... am I making sense?
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 1:20 pm on July 18, 2001 Yes you are. So if I understand correclty, your feelings towards him make you afraid of approaching the issue...The issue of the two of you being together...I know that feeling so well...I didn't act on it with Jenny, that girl I mentioned, but when THE ONE appeared, it was like Neo at the end of The Matrix, when he was stopping the bullets and fighting the agents off with no sweat...The fact that I KNEW she was THE ONE made me imune to anything...And less than two months after we met we were together...After seeing each other only five times.
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:26 pm on July 18, 2001
I did tell him how I felt, as soon as I had worked it out for myself... but unfortunatly, he, giving no reason, said he would rather just be friends....
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 1:30 pm on July 18, 2001
Ha...You should talk to Glacialis when he comes back...I mean it...
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:47 pm on July 18, 2001
Why should I talk to Glacialis?
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 1:50 pm on July 18, 2001
Yes you do need to wait for the right time...
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 10:39 am on July 19, 2001 Ok, thank you.
-- Posted by Glacialis on 2:09 pm on July 20, 2001
Heh. I was about to write that Amor's got another one having same fears as me, but I obviously don't need to. :)
That's almost exactly what I always say to myself, and to Mihnea. I'm just not believing in it that much anymore. If you want to go deeper into this, you can always mail me.
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 4:48 am on July 21, 2001 Yeah...I seem to have only non-believer friends...
-- Posted by Glacialis on 12:39 pm on July 21, 2001
Well, you're a Bishop, so get on with the convertin'. :tongue:
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:11 pm on Aug. 6, 2001
As we walked up the hill we talked, words of the beauty of the world. A world you make beautiful by the way you percieve it. Each second I spend with you, I scorn those that know you everyday, and do not realize how lucky they are. Those people who do not take the time to absorb you as I do, and to take in every part of the perfection that is you.
-- Posted by Glacialis on 1:33 pm on Aug. 6, 2001 You left it into a bad spot. :) Then what happened? (I feel like a kid tugging momma by the sleeve "Come on! Tell me more! What happened next?")
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 12:12 pm on Aug. 7, 2001 What happened was the film was long finished, and he was an hour later leaving than planned.... I see him again tommorow.... and I havn;t seen him since I think he inadvertantly found out that I think he has feelings for me.... wonder if he will mention it tommorow???
-- Posted by Glacialis on 4:06 pm on Aug. 7, 2001 Hmmm... Damn. For once I hoped for a happy ending... :sad2:
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 3:52 pm on Aug. 8, 2001
Ummmmmm, define happy?
-- Posted by Glacialis on 3:53 pm on Aug. 8, 2001 Yes, that'd be the 'happy ending'. Getting closer. :)
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 12:38 pm on Aug. 9, 2001
How does this sound for closer?
-- Posted by Glacialis on 12:50 pm on Aug. 9, 2001 Hmm... That does sound closer. :)
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:06 pm on Aug. 9, 2001 And, what confuses me is he kept on pressing me into him, pulling me closer, so that we were pressed right against each other
-- Posted by Glacialis on 1:08 pm on Aug. 9, 2001
K. I see what you mean. That is quite hinting, but if he denies it...
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:21 pm on Aug. 9, 2001 I want to find a way to tell him how i feel without words, because, however articulate I normally am, when I go to discuss my emotions, I go to pot.... how am I supposed to let him know how I feel?
-- Posted by Glacialis on 1:27 pm on Aug. 9, 2001 Haven't the slightest. :shrug:
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 4:09 pm on Aug. 9, 2001 What's wrong with that guy? Damned. Maybe you should just look into his eyes with all that love and then just kiss him! On his lips. But what's wrong with him? Why aren't you together yet? Something's wrong here.
-- Posted by Glacialis on 4:18 pm on Aug. 9, 2001 They're prob both like cats circling a hot pot of porridge, to use a local proverb.
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 7:13 am on Aug. 11, 2001 Yeh, well, one problem is the fact that I am scared, and maybe he is too. The other problem is that when I feel like we are getting somewhere, something interupts us, ie, my sister/brother...
-- Posted by Amor Fati on 9:32 am on Aug. 11, 2001 Hey, come on, it can't be that hard to remain alone with him...
-- Posted by Glacialis on 12:49 pm on Aug. 11, 2001 Believe me, Amor: In cases like that, it is.
-- Posted by CardsForSorrow on 1:50 pm on Aug. 11, 2001 yeh, it is really really hard..... I have nosey siblings, I share a room with my sister, and my youngest brother should wear a big sign that says 'Do Not Trust Me, I Stalk And Talk'
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